When GOOD FRIENDS become LOVERS...

As I'm about to write this post, I really don't know how to begin.. tsk! tsk! Pa'no nga ba? hehe Do you know how it feels when you finally.. finally got what you've been longing for, for the longest time. Yun bang "Ah! Sa wakas natupad din ang matagal ko nang pinakaaasam-asam..." Magulo ba? siguro magulo nga but one thing is for sure... this is definitely one of BEST MOMENTS in my life...

It all started the first time I ever saw his face. That time kasi I was with somebody pa. When I first saw him, my world suddenly stopped.. my body was temporarily paralyzed.. my jaw dropped... and as if I was in the middle of a fireworks display... Yup, it was just like MAGIC. I've never felt that way eversince I saw Kristine Hermosa in the flesh.. Indeed, it was LOVE at FIRST SIGHT..

But it was not that simple, kasi nga I was in a commitment that time. And I'm not the type who would drop a partner just to jump into the arms of another who I found better. Needless to say, I've continued with my relationship at that time. Pero, that was also the beginning of my friendship with MAGIC. We've talked over the phone, we exchanged text messages several times even though most of the time it was me who sends the most messages without any replies. But that was fine with me.. 'cause I'm not expecting anything from him..

When I broke-up with my partner, I was not that devastated because at the back of my mind, I realized that there's now hope for me to get more intimate with MAGIC. But I hesitated. Then I decided not pursue him muna. Why? Baka kasi nagrerebound lang ako. So I wanted to take time to re-assess what I'm feeling. How can I give him my heart fully if my heart is still broken? If I will love him, gusto ko BUONG-BUO akong magmamahal sa kanya. And he knows that, kasi sinabi ko sa kanya.

I went away for some soul-searching. And when I finally felt that the wounds were already healed I decided to come back, to pursue what I want to pursue.. that is to be with MAGIC. Unfortunately, fate has other plans. Yes, he's with somebody na.. and it hurts.. Yup, kahit alam ko na I dont have the right to feel that way, I was really hurt, so bad that I decided not to have any communication with him. Pero di ko siya matiis eh.. So we went on with our friendship.

Hanggang sa iniwan siya ng partner nya. I know that he was so devastated that time. God knows I wanted to be with him but at that time I have my own ordeal to deal with. If you guys can still remember, that was the time of my so-called SABBATHICAL in an island in the south. But that was another story. Anyways, when I came back, I immediately tried reaching him but his number was out of reach. Nag-soul searching din pala. So hayaan ko na lang muna, sabi ko sa sarili ko. But he was always in my prayers.

One day, I received a text message from him, then with a new number, nangangamusta. Sabi ko mabuti.. in a relationship again.. Nag-iba ang dating ng text nya. From then on, 'di na siya gaano nagtetext. Gago nga ako siguro.. what can I do.. I'm only human.. laging wrong timing kami.. I can only hope that he'll find his happiness.. But the happiness that I was hoping for him, was the happiness that I'm wishing for myself.

Then the day when I bid goodbye to another relationship came. But that time, I have no more regrets. I promised myself not to enter any relationship until I found the right person worthy to be loved. Then MAGIC came back... Then MAGIC brought me back...

We seldom see each other but whenever we do, it seems like we were never apart. I like the way he smiles.. the way he laughs.. especially with my jokes... kahit super corny ko na, tatawa pa rin yan.. I also like the way he dance... the way he moves... the way he swims... the way he sings... the way his eyes glow... everything about him... I love everything about him...

And now that fate has finally given us a chance to be together, I promised myself to take special care of this wonderful person. I will make him happy with the ways that I know. I dont know what's instore for us in the future. All I know is that HE IS MY PRESENT... and it really feels like MAGIC..


lawrence