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DON'T want YOU to read this. this is just for me. i just want to get this feeling out of of me. i feel kinda down. haha maybe i just think too much. haha, there's really no luck for me when it comes to love haha. coz i'm kinda picky. and whenever i find someone i "kinda" like, the guy doesn't seem to like me back, haha. i wonder when i'll get to find that person, who'd have that same feeling towards me. i've never had a relationship, straight or gay. there was just one "commitment" i made,this year (april-oct 2007). the guy just broke my heart, haha. i learned my lesson. haha. that's why i'm trying to be more careful this time. i wanna experience loving someone, someone outside my family and circle of friends. i wanna experience how it is to be "loved". but still no luck. i've been telling myself i should focus more on my career, my school (now) and my future, before i go and share myself to someone. but i don't know. i wanna feel inspired and motivated. damn. but i'm afraid to get hurt. i don't wanna get hurt again. well, who does. for now, alright, i'll just go steady. mark, don't get too excited over someone. don't expect anything. and don't hope? hahaha. just be cool. go with the flow. love comes when you least expect it. but it will come. it will come. it will come. hahaha. i just hope i'm not too old when that moment fimally comes. well, no one's too old in love. hahahaha. nevermind. there. i think i feel better now. i'll go over this again, if this feeling ever comes back again. get up, get up. and just keep on keepin on! :-) EMON 5138866